Little Sister

So if my apoligies were as good as my guilt eyes
I'd be like , Jesus-right?
But wait...
Wouldnt that mean crucifiction?

So everybody has a flaw
A kink in thier armor
Mine-I dont know when to shut the fuck up
And then I dont know how to deal with the confrontation
So let my brain go for a minute


First.
I'm so sorry. I forgot of you vunerability for the day, sometimes i lose sight of things like that and i dont come off as the guy you know me of. But the reason I make those jokes is so you could say "Fuck you" and laugh at the same time
Because i love when you do that

I guess I take things to far
and i guess i dont know what love is
but i can damn sure try to guess it

Second.
What i view as love with us:
i guess
i dont know what to say
other than love is being there for the sunshine and the rain
Love is taking shit like this and learning from it
Love is the fact that i could tell you that you dont have any flaws because in my eyes you're perfect
know why?
Because when you love someone, you tend to appreciate the imperfections too
You love the imperfections
because it means they're not only human
but to an extent, they're not because they're flawless
If you're to read this
you're probably gonna laugh,
because it's okay
because thats what love means too
Ignoring all the little things that wont mean anything someday
why do i keep fucking saying love?
Anyway
Love is a force that makes you

• physically intrested with someone
• fascinated with someone
• engulfed in someone
• obsessed with someone
• or broken by someone

i had to add broken because after obsessed, they're either obsessed with you too or your broken and your world no longer makes sense

But we're different, arent we?
Alot Different

i think you're the most amazing person ive ever met

i think you're the strongest too

I think that if we really put our hearts into it, we could raise hell

and have the most fun we've ever had

i think i love you

but i think i dont want to do anything with you that would hurt anything we had

and so

you're my little sister

And big brothers

can be dickheads sometimes

We tease at the wrong time

Because we think it's okay

But i forgot an underlying problem

and i set you off

and i hope you didnt take that dumb shit to heart

because we're all insecure

but trust me when i say

you're beautiful and i wouldnt want you anyy other way

Little sister

It seems i've made another mistake

It seems i didnt listen to your discretion

It seems i've been a shitty big brother

But I cant stand the thought of seeing you mad

I cant stand the thought of you saying k, but meaning
you're never gonna live this down

little sister

i love you

in a wierd way

because love cant be confined into four little fucking letters

like now i get why people say god is love

because its so fucking beautiful

if everything was love

we'd be in heaven

You know?

Little Sister

You left to fast

It sunk in at about 11:15 that i had made a horrible mistake

and at about 11:35 im going to seal this letter in my best wishes for you

in hopes that everything will be ok

and you could finally be happy

little sister

This is so little

but so big to me

i want you to know if you ever hate me

to read this

and know that no matter what

you're always here in my heart

little sister

im not asking for guilt because i would rather have your hate than guilt

i want your forgiveness

and your trust

that if the world has a gun to your head

Then you're big brothers going to take the bullet

Little Sister

I think i've never been in love

but i know what love is

i dont know if we love each other on the same magnitudes

but i know how much i care

scares me sometimes

but thats what the world wants

for you to overcome fear

to break boundries

to play with the fucking flowers

and let the sand seep through your fingers

and to let the pieces fall

and pick it up

the way you want to

ittle sister

you have the world in your palm and you dont even know it

you have strength

and this is coming from the boy over reacting now

so, just trust me

Little sister, it seems ive written another novel

but every chapter in your life just pulls me closer to the want to be remembered

as the person who helped you through the worst

and to be remembered

for the rest of your life

Little sister

You're so beautiful

and i love you

and i will try not to hurt you

but i want you to remember im flesh and bone

and nothing more

Little sister

I love you so much

and im not using my way with words to escape your anger

but to let you know

that i care

more than anyone will until you get a husband

-Derrick